Date:	2004-06-01 18:11
Subject:	Chris Dacuna is a FUCKING tool.
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down

So

Today the day was kinda hectic getting back from Boston and such, and then right before work, my tool of a room mate tells me that I need to move out today. Now, we'd talked atleast three times about me moving out later than the first and he said it was fine ... now all of a sudden it isn't ... and tells me right before a ten hour shift at the library. So yeah, I guess now tonight after I get out of work at ten, I'm going home for about an hour and a half, packing up, and moving all my shit to the new place. Thumbs down. I'm on like, two hours of sleep and yeah, after work I usually don't want to carry shit down two flights of stairs and (in the case of my couch and desk n some stuff like that) then carry it two blocks (crossing highland street) n shit. Grrr man. Fucking grr.

But, despite that, (and that in forty minutes I'm using my break to move my bed to the new apartment while we can use sara's jeep) I'm very happy right now. It's cause girls who use the word groovy n stuff, and like hardcore, and and all that other music I listen to too ... they're rade and make me happy, and there's that ... that show buddy, and yup, we talked a lot and yup, it was good. No, great.

Anyway, I'm a gonna get back to work here, but I'll talk to you all later or what not.

Bye bye.

Date:	2004-05-30 18:35
Subject:	Red Sox.
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	I'm playing guitar at the library cause I'm a rebel

So. A really cute girl told me I should update since I haven't in forever, so here's my summer.

So far:
Went to DC, had fun with Mike, got kicked out of a bar (FUCKING LESS THAN A MONTH UNTIL I TURN 21, the fuckers)
Umm. not much
Got new sneakers
Went to a Sox game with Mike, Julie, and Jon; and it was loads of fun.
Worried about my moving ... decided I'm moving over all of next week.
Working at a library full time ... two thumbs down. For serious.

right now:
Sitting at the library.

Coming up:
Moving
more working at the library
Lauren comes home June 3
more guitar.
21st birthday
Seeing Morgan tomorrow night
Caitlin said she'd help me move whatever I have left on Friday. (YAY)
Umm. sure. Other stuff I guess.

So, here's a post.

talk to you all later.

bye.

Date:	2003-10-14 10:25
Subject:	same old shit dog, just a bigger shovel.
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	the jealous sound.

So ... it's final time ... so that just means that it's even harder for me to find people to go goof off with and blow off their classes, but I realized today that I'm basically on break, just got one more test in thermo, n then I'm done.

Right now I'm at the writing center talking with my emily online n ... you know ... just hanging out waiting for a prize winner to come in and take their prize. I did not win a prize. : (

I got a hair cut yesterday, don't think I'm likin' it too much ... I haven't had my hair this short since my sister's wedding a year and a half ago.

and today I promise you, a change is over due. And everytime that I arrive, you will be gone.

I now have a friend named steak. who is a girl.

I am bored, and going to go steal candy from the tutoring table now that the tutor is done ... you know, tutoring.

this must be boring ... I'm gonna stop then.

bye bye

Date:	2003-10-13 17:45
Subject:	wow
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	Receiving End of Sirens - Shirtsleeves

I never knew getting a hair cut could be as awkward as that just was ... oh man.

Date:	2003-09-24 18:43
Subject:	cause you so special
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	Recieving End of Sirens - Shirtsleeves

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KITTEN!!!

Date:	2003-09-22 00:54
Subject:	I just want to sleep
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed
Music:	house mates watching family guy ...

all I want to do is sleep. Another half hour and I'm going to my friend's place.



I hope I get to see emily Friday night and she can stay over ... and that the party people might be thinking of having here will be saturday rather than friday. Cause, I think I'm going to skate fest Friday night, and then would be dead ass tired coming back, and wouldn't want to have to deal with all sorts of drunk people ... especially if Emily came back with me. Also, Jon Olsen works all day and night friday, so he'd be tired friday too, and probably not want to deal with it ... and I think since he's such a good guy and house mate it'd be nice if he could be here for one of the house parties that leaves the whole floor outside his room sticky as shit. But the party thing is really hard to talk about ... no one knows if there will be one or who wants one etc.
I just hope I can be with emily. that's all I want.


I've also been really low and depressed lately. so that sucks.


girls suck too. of the four girls I've liked, one of them started seeing someone else and still leads me on, the other one has someone perfect for her who she's after and I seriously doubt I'd register on her scope, one of them just broke up with her boyfriend and she's really sad and has a bunch of other stuff going on with her .. and then I never get to see the other girl ...


I'm starting to gain weight again which is helping too. Oh yeah, helping lots.


No one seems interested in buying my guitar and I'm flat ass broke.


I think I'm going to try sleeping again.


fuck this

i'm out.

Date:	2003-08-04 10:38
Subject:	God Fuckin' Hates Me
Security:	Public
Mood:	angry
Music:	nothing, all my music is on my computer without power

so quick post ...

Yeah, on Saturday I take my mom to go get a new light fixture for the kitchen, and we don't know which breaker the kitchen is on, so my mom goes down to the basement and turns them off one my one until the light I'm working on goes off, and we leave it off, I put the new light in, somehow still get shocked about five times, go down, turn the breakers on, everything works. Well, everything in the kitchen ... for some reason I can't fix or figureo out, the circuit to my room, while on, is not sending any electricity to my room ... so my room with my computer, and stereo, and tv, air conditioner, xbox, and all that now has no power so I've had to stay in my brother's room so I'll have an alarm clock to get up for work ... Now I was somewhat annoyed at this because my disgusting slothenly sister has stayed in that room for [for what I thought was] no reason. Then today, I'm looking to see if there is a phone jack in there so I could move my computer into that room until my room gets fixed, and I find this book face down on the floor. I'm bored, thinking I could go for a nice book to read, and flip it over ...
"The Best American Erotica 2001"

fuckin' gross.

Date:	2003-07-29 17:01
Subject:	the apartment
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off

So yeah,

Sorry to those people who think I was in the wrong because I didn't like the idea of someone just taking over my space without asking / letting me know about it ... and as for how it went down, I feel bad about it, that wasn't how I had planned on it going down, but it was how it went, so if you guys don't want to live with me ... because you know, I'm a horrible person cause I didn't want someone living in my room with out having asked me ... let me know so I can try to find someone to move into my room ... someone without another apartment, to move into my room, and find somewhere else to live ... cause honestly, if I'm gonna be getting shit for this all year it's not going to be a good environment for anyone, and I know I won't want to live there.

September 6 in Lowell at the tsongas arena ... tickets are 20.50 ... anyone else want to go? I want to but wouldn't have a way to get there from worcester, but if someone else wants in, I'd pay for gas and half of parking. Let me know

ALSO,

Rufio, Motion City Soundtrack, Northstar, and The Fight upstairs at the Palladium October 5 for ten bucks

Date:	2003-07-28 10:28
Subject:	Brand New ...
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	Brand New - Jaws Theme Swimming

So, I really liked Brand New's cd Your Favourite Weapon, I'm not too sure if I like the new one Deja Entendu ...

Date:	2003-07-27 01:46
Subject:	yeah
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	Yellowcard - Cigarette

So yeah,

I'm kind of nervous about my living situation next year. I'm just kind of getting the feeling that the people I'm living with are too big on the idea of me living with them ... I don't know, just a feeling. If any of you read this and can confirm or disconfirm it, I'd appreciate it if you could e-mail me and either tell me I'm wrong; or if I am right, tell me what problems there are so we can deal with them before I move in.

Work at the beach today was pretty busy and hectic and kind of sucked cause there there was a medic alert, [a woman started to go into a diabetic coma] so about three cop cars, the police expedition, fire truck, fire cheif, and an ambulance came racing up to the beach and I was working at the gate. Now, I was there with this other kid who had the radio, and was too busy getting in the way and trying to find out what was going to tell me we needed to close down the road, and then he was too busy talking with friends to tell me when the road was open again ... and that was just really really frustrating. But after work, I started my new second job ... washing and waxing police officer's cars. Not a tough beat, gets me some extra cash, and keeps the man off my back.

Also, I'm thinking of selling my Squier ... so if anyone wants a used electric that is well maintained and a good starter guitar I don't really have room for anymore [I got an acoustic the other day, and don't really want to have the SG, acoustic, and squier around] and need some cash. I'm thinking of selling the guitar, case, and strap ... iuno, might find something else to throw in, let me know. I'm gonna be looking for about a hundred for everything ... I'm going to put an add out soon, so if you want it, let me know and we can figure something out.

Well, I'm tired, so I'm gonna go back to sleep. I'll talk to everyone later on.

Date:	2003-07-25 18:27
Subject:	Hey everybody ... thought it was time to blow the dust of this thing
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy
Music:	Yellowcard, something corporate, alkaline trio, and me

Hey ... yeah, so umm, haven't updated in a wicked long time ... and last time I did was too short to really count, but yeah. I'm living at home ... and not suprizingly want to kill my sister everytime she does something dumb ... which is quite often. Oh man do I like music. So I had complications with my job ... namely, I started becoming a dick ... but I've reverted back to the happy carefree fun me, so all is good. AND, I got this weekend off to go to a giant rager in New Hampshire, which is gonna be so worth it.

So this entry is gonna start being all over the place [more so] starting ... NOW!

I really like Yellowcard

I think lots of stuff are neat.

My guitar is shiny ... real shiny. =)

LONG OCTOBER NIGHTS, you came and cuddled next to me baby, yeah yeah yeah. Our noses were so close, I wished it was our souls drifting off to sleep. I could hear the little sores you made, watching eyes shut tight, like doors to something sweeter where you rest. Tear me off a peice of blanket, Keep me warm, and we can make it, here's my hear, I'll let you break it. Touched your skin and I can't take it!

Oh man, yellowcard.

I work at a beach ... and I'm known as the "ballsy flirt"

I think for my boss's birthday present, I'm gonna take a GI Joe, and turn it into the Matt "Tuff Love" Donahue action figure. That'd be neat. And otherwise, I have no idea what to get him.

anyway, I've just been playing guitar and music real loud and ignoring this, so I'm gonna update.

later on suckers!

Hey everybody, I haven't updated in uber long

so yeah, I'm at my friend Laurens, it's summer, and I work at the beach


well,
talk to you later

<3 - me!

Date:	2003-04-23 14:51
Subject:	six days
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	Cartman [and congress] singing The Heat of the Moment

until school is over.

I feel really low ... especially since I feel as though I'd been used a lot the past two or so weeks. This term has been a blur. this morning I forgot to cover a shift for claudia even though I made myself a note and everything and now I feel like ass. I've also felt sick lately ... but just six days, then I don't have to worry about this goddam motherfucking college anymore. Then in June ... June 1st, I get to move into my new apartment. I hope get up on the third floor. All the rooms are a good size, and I would be garunteed not to be on the same floor as Max. Problem is, no one knows how the rooms work. Not only cause some of them still need to be split up so everyone will have a single ... like ... physically split ... and no one knows how that is going to work and our land lord has no problem saying "double up!" and JR, Jeff, and Wizzo are on the third floor cause JR will not live with some of the people in the house. So, we're not sure if it's going to be in the lottery for rooms, or if it's like, they get to choose who lives there. I don't know ... I just like the rooms up there, but as long as I have a room that can fit a double bed, a dresser, desk, and my amp, I'll be fine.

I'm done, I no longer care about this live journal .. at all.

later

I got my hair cut ... and it's short now.

tomorrow I have to get to the bank to deposit my checks

Next week I get my new guitar and amp

okay, people say I should update, so I did, now maybe they'll see why I don't.

bye

Date:	2003-04-08 09:54
Subject:	yeah
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed
Music:	Unearth

So I haven't posted in a very long time. Haven't done much in a long time. Here's some updates for those of you who haven't heard ...

Sparta/Glassjaw show - SPARTA was amazing ... I was in the first five rows for that ... and that was an uber good time. Then ... glassjaw started ... during the first song, I lost a shoe and consequently broke two toes. Then during the second song, got a foot to the junk, and knocked down [at which point my head got stepped on, resulting in a concussion]

Results from the concussion : 34 on my Materials Mid term, Ethics mid term to be made up, Ethics paper to be written


Also, over spring break, like, a month or so ago, my great grandmother fell and broke her hip. Since then she had surgery and was recovering ... as best her 99 and a half year old body could ... which proved not to be enough. So I spent about a week by the side of her death bed, and she passed away last Wednesday. It sucks that she broke her hip, cause I really loved my great grandmother and she would still be alive and well if it hadn't been for that ... but since she had broken her hip and had not been able to recover fully, and would have to spend the rest of her life in a nursing home [which she would have hated] it's good that she passed. I didn't like visiting her and seeing her in pain.

So I'm really sad ... like ... depressed sad ... and don't really know why. All I have motivation to do is play guitar, and even that I can't put up with for long ... which sucks when there is so much work I have to do [that giant pile I think partly contributing to my issues]

I'm gonna learn Paris in Flames ... at some point this week ... like ... today ... or tomorrow.

Well, I'm not writing here anymore ... just staring blankly at the screen as I often do ... so I'm gonna try to study for the ethics mid term I have to make up this afternoon.

yeah, I think I know what is wrong, but writing about it here ain't gotta help shit, I just gotta talk to this person ... and soon I hope ...

why is it when people ask what's wrong, I always say nothing ... even though that's very not true ... fuck me.

peice

i'm out

Date:	2003-03-08 01:35
Subject:	it's been a while
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed
Music:	Alkaline Trio - I'm Dying Tomorrow

because I've been in Seattle.

I really like UW. I spent most of Tuesday, and all day today there.

The Indian food I had tonight sucked.

I'm not going to Vancouver.

I have two new holes in my face.

Mike is giving me a ride back to school from the air port.

I hate my life.

nite.

: /

Date:	2003-02-24 15:45
Subject:	I have a weather pixie
Security:	Public
Mood:	artistic
Music:	White Men Can't Jump

and spikey hair! YAY ! It is fun.

Date:	2003-02-22 11:23
Subject:	so am I still waiting
Security:	Public
Mood:	angry
Music:	that stupid bitch on her cell phone

So, here I am at work cause like, two or three weeks ago I told this canadian person I would work for them. And so then I kinda forgot, and that person e-mailed me asking if I could still cover, and of course I said I could. I need to think sometimes. Anyway, yeah, so I'm pretty tired. Atleast it is a weekend and Jacob is letting me use a lap top. I did quite a bit of work re-writing my transfer essay so it's not SO much "WPI sucks goat balls" but because at any minute the library could be out of lap tops, being as there is one in the storage thing, and then this one, I'd have to give it up, and the patron shouldn't have to wait while I save shit to get the lap top.
Yeah, so after work at one, I'm meeting Colleen and maybe other people too for lunch, then I'm gonna make cookies and try to spike my hair, since that didn't really work out at ALL last night. Man, I even bought the glue stuff and everything. I think my hair is too long and was too wet at the time. I think when I shower again I'll just kinda get my hair misted and try to do it with that, cause the spikes kept falling down.
I hate my life. a lot.
so am I still waiting for this world to stop hating. Can't find a good reason, can't find hope to believe in.
I want to put a bullet in my brain, and talking to you is like a loaded gun.
I am so tired I just want to sleep. I don't want to wake up. I just want to sleep. There's only one person I want to wake up next to. I think slut is one of the worst things you can call a girl, especially to her face. I don't want to be in Massachusetts anymore. I want to be in Seattle, and I don't want to come back. I hope the rain stops while I'm walking with my guitar. My head hurts a lot right now. A lot. I really want to take my guitar to Seattle with me. I really want my friend to be in Seattle to hang out with me, and I really REALLY want to drive through the mountains and what not.
gotta go, someone might bitch at me for the lap top

piece out kiddos

i'm done

Date:	2003-02-15 15:56
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy
Music:	something

amy just touched my knee